This morning at church, during the worship, I felt the Lord wanting me to go in a different direction with this site. Initially, I wanted to touch on issues that are often neglected in churches, but I feel the need to use this site to encourage weary travelers.
See, we were singing the song, “Way Maker,” and a reoccurring line goes: “Way maker, Miracle worker, Promise Keeper, Light in the darkness, that is who You are.” For me, God being the Light in the darkness resonates with me for two reasons. First, when God saved my soul when I was a teenager, He rescued me from a deep darkness. Second, about a year and a half ago, I fell into a deep depression. This, after walking with the Lord for some thirty years, and being in ministry, etc. I was in deep darkness, and closer to the edge than I realized.
When I was was still in my darkness, I read a promise in Micah: “I may be sitting in the dark, but the Lord is my light” (7:8, CEV). I remember the Lord giving me an illustration: a person can be sitting in the dark at night, but this does not mean the sun has fizzled out. No, the sun is merely hidden. Mind you, this did not pull me out of my depression, God would do that later; however, I was reminded today that God, indeed, is our Light in the darkness.
Depression is not necessarily sinful. In fact, a number of godly persons in the Scriptures dealt with depression (e.g., Moses, Jeremiah, David, Hannah, Elijah, etc.). Christians—including pastors—can experience depression. Again, the reasons vary.
If you are struggling with depression, please know that Jesus is your light. Confide with some persons you can trust. And I hope you will continue to check in on this site. It had been my goal to try to post something at least once a week.
Although you might feel forsaken (this is a horrible feeling), but please know that God is faithful to His own—even when He seems to have withdrawn!